We all have some unfulfilled desire/wish. It could be eating an ice cream in rain or going on a vacation to an island or it could be meeting an old friend. But all of s have something in our wishlist that we were not able to fulfil due to various reasons. You might have just postponed a plan or you might have even give up on a wish think that it might never happen. Nevertheless, if we get a second chance, we will get that wish fulfilled.
I have quite a few plans that I want to take care of. I had postponed these due to many circumstances, but if life were to give me a second chance, I will do them right now.
The most important thing is finishing my college degree.
I was taking a Bachelor of Engineering course in Aeronautical Engineering. It was the first time ever I stayed out of home. I stayed in hostel and the first year (2008-09 academic year) of college went great. But in second year(2009-10 academic year), unfortunately, I got into bad company. Soon I was addicted to drugs and I didn't care about studies. I disappointed my parents very much and it affected my life so badly. I had to quit the college. I spent three years in college and in the end I was left with nothing but shame and guilt. My parents were so worried, but thank God, they somehow got me out of the mess I was in. I realized that I should get my B.E. degree to get a decent job, but I had already taken a education loan for the B.E. and I had few other debts. Plus I have to take care of my family. In this condition, I am not able to go back to college and complete the final year. I also have many backlogs from previous semesters. But if life gives me a second chance, the first thing I will do is to clear the backlogs and join the college. Getting a college degree may not sound much important to many, but after spending three years and lakhs of rupees, not a single day passes by without remorse. I know that I cannot start over, but I wish I will be given a second chance to correct the mistakes that I did in past.Apologising to my grand dad.
My granddad always believed in me, even when no one else did. After dropping off from college, I thought to myself that I was no good to this world. But he said, if I were anything, I am "good". Even in his last years he worked very hard. He loved to travel, but he never travelled in his last few years because he gave all he earned to me to pay the fee that the educational loan didn't cover. Even in his last day, he was getting ready for work, but God took him away from us. I wanted him to go on an all India tour on my first salary. But I didn't even complete the degree and I screwed up real bad. I failed him. After quitting college I came to Mumbai from Palladam to start working in BPO and I never got a chance to apologize to him face to face and I cannot apologize to him in this life ever again.I want to say "I Love You" to her.
She is the love of my life. We were friends classmates during our high school and we were very good friends since then. We loved each other truly. She went to Germany to for her studies in 2010 and then we didn't talk much. We stayed in touch and when she learned what I was doing here, she was very angry at me for what I did. She wanted me to continue my college and complete the degree. But I had no hope. So I moved on with my life putting the studies behind. After she came back, I didn't feel good to hang out with her. She is the best lady I have ever met and I was a decadent. I was just a vermin and she deserve a lot better than that. but considering the situations, we decided to part away. It was so hard on her than it was on me, but I couldn't do anything. She loved me so much and I loved her. I still do. I want to look into her eyes and say "I love You." If I can get a chance to correct the things that I did before, I will never leave her.
These three are things that bothers me so much.
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